October 5, 2008
I’m really homesick today. I have been in India for more than a month now. I didn’t realize how much I would miss home. I think that it’s been harder for me because I haven’t really found my place in the group yet. I thought that I would figure out where I belong but I just haven’t. I don’t know if my experience is different from everyone else’s or what it is. I find it difficult to open up with all of these people. I think about Katie a lot and it’s just really hard to deal with. I want to be close to my family. They are the only people who make me feel a little bit better. I prayed that I would find the strength to get through this but I haven’t felt any stronger yet. I hope that it comes soon so that I will be able to handle whatever obstacles India throws at me because I know there are more to come. I think about why I have come here and I wonder if I made the right choice. India has not necessarily brought out the best in me. I feel sad more often than I feel happy here. I know that there is a reason I am here, but I haven’t figured it out just yet. I know that it will take some time, but like my mom said, “each new day brings you closer to home, to us.” I guess that I have to think this way until I feel a little better. I really hope that I feel better soon otherwise its going to be a long two and a half months.
1 comment:
Hi Michele,
Since I read the Country Chronicles, I've been praying for you. I had no idea you were going to be in India. God will bless you greatly there. I read that some parts are really, really tough, but you are so strong, Michele. I know you can do anything that you need to. You are the kind of young woman that makes a difference wherever you are. I think often of our day in Rochester, playing all those ostentatious Steinway grand pianos and just spending time together - it remains one of my favorite memories. I'm so glad that we were able to do that together. You are a remarkable young woman, never forget that. The Lord has so much for you and will begin to open doors because of the person you are and the faith that you are sharing. You are in my prayers and my thoughts all the time! I love you and hope we can connect when you return to US.
God bless you!
Debbi St John
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