Traveling Makes Me Tired

December 8, 2008

We are sitting in the Mumbai airport right now waiting to get our tickets figured out.  For some reason things aren’t working out the way they should be.  I just want to get through security, get on the plane and get back to Bangalore.  I really just want to be back at Visthar and getting this trip wrapped up.  I feel like I still have so much left to do here and so little time.  I really just want to go back home.  I want to have a chance to relax and feel sweet freedom.  I want to be able to come and go as I please and not have to answer to anyone but myself.  Ever since coming to India I have felt trapped.  We are constantly moving and being asked to do so much.  I have forgotten what it feels like to have a free weekend.  I know that I’ve said it before but it feels like we are in class 24/7.  I’ve been wondering what I will miss about India when we leave and I haven’t come up with anything yet.  I realize that doesn’t sound very good.  I’ve been living here for almost 4 months and I won’t miss anything.  Maybe I just need to take a step back and take a deeper look into the experience.  There’s a lot of reflection that needs to happen within myself.  I think that the hardest part is knowing that there’s so much that I will need to do by myself.  It’s hard to think about this reflection in terms of doing it on my own.  It’s actually really sad.  Great.  Now I made myself sad.  I’m done for the day.