More Reiki

November 4, 2008

We had another session of Reiki today.  I think that I was more into it today, but the skeptic in me just won’t let me truly believe that I am doing anything that is healing to anyone.  I have this feeling that has a lot to do with how I see western medicine.  When a person is sick they go to a doctor and get medicine, you don’t go to a spiritual healer and get touched.  I just find it hard to believe.  The experience today was hard because some people from the group really believe that Reiki works and it makes me laugh.  I didn’t want to offend anyone, but I started laughing during group Reiki.  It is just really hard for me to touch people that I don’t know.  It makes me really uncomfortable.  I am probably the last person that wants to get in on a group hug, and yet there I am hugging someone for the first time in 2 months.

The theme of personal space continues to come up for me.  Within the group it is not an issue because I think all of us have this issue with space.  We had to perform Reiki on each other today and I hated it.  My roommate and I were partners and I couldn’t look her in the face otherwise I knew that I was going to start laughing.  As she put her hands on my face I knew it was going to be a long hour.  I was laying there thinking about how uncomfortable I was.  How am I supposed to get anything out of the experience if I feel this way?  I’m glad that Reiki is over.