Stressed Out Much

November 14, 2008
I wasn’t feeling well today and we had a fairly busy day planned. I decided to stay back at our hotel because I didn’t want to bring down the rest of the group. I have felt so sick in India. I just want my body to go back to feeling good everyday instead of feeling like crap everyday. I know that there will be some adjusting back in the US but I hope that it is not as difficult as the transition into India was for me. This morning our group got together to have a journal reading and afterwards we talked about what our schedule looks like for the next five weeks. Let me tell you…My stomach was in complete knots. We have a packed schedule until we leave. Between now and the 18th of December I have to write 2 five page papers, do a big final project and paper and give a book review, and on top of that tons of traveling around the country. It’s going to be a lot to do over the next month. I’m guessing that the time will start to fly by with all of the things that we have left to do. This is not the first time that I have had so many things to do at once but it is the first time that I have had to do these things some where other than Gustavus. If I were at Gustavus the stress would be bad but it would not be like this. I know that I will get everything done, but it just seems like a lot to have on my plate right now. I know that dealing with the stress will be difficult but I also know that there are some awesome opportunities coming up for me. I think that these experiences will help balance out the stress.

Being in India is like being in class 24 hours a day, 7 days a week for 4 months. Weekends have no real meaning for me here. They are just days of the week. There’s nothing too different about them. We don’t have a lot of time to just relax and enjoy the surroundings. We are always going and when we are not going we are getting ready to go somewhere. Tomorrow we are flying to Delhi where we will be experiencing “cultural tourism.” We get to be tourists. I’m looking forward to the time that we will have to spend doing some fun things together. However, I am a little nervous because during our discussion this morning we talked about Delhi being a dangerous place. We will have to be on guard the entire time we are staying in Delhi. I’m afraid that something will happen. I feel like I always have to be watching out for everything around me. We are going to have some free time in the city but we don’t know the city at all so I’m worried that I won’t be able to relax and enjoy it. Maybe I just worry too much. I really need to learn how to relax a little bit.